Life is to short

In September my girlfriend was rushed by ambulance to the hospital because of her lungs and heart she had 35% heart and 25% of her lungs left after she had a asthma attack which was the third one in one day.She was at the hospital being treated until 3 am when she got discharged. The ones that kept her going were her kids and her parents if it wasn't for them she really wouldn't be where she is today. The next week i went to met her in the hospital lounge and noticed that she was pale again and also without her even telling me that her lungs were acting up and we then walk down the hall to the er and on the way there her lungs wouldn't stop acting up and as we were brought in the back she was having a hard time walking which meant that she was in for another ride that she wasn't going to enjoy. She had me help her walk and she didn't even have to tell me anything because i read her and that's how i knew that my night was going to be a hard one and have and be hold it was a night filled up with pain and hurt. I was going to turn the light off so she could go to sleep and she told me if she went to sleep that she was afraid that she wouldn't wake up and that really frightened me and also made me think about what she told me of her ex. When we were about to get discharged the doctor came in and told her that her heart was enlarged which meant for her that she was going to have to make some changes and  meant to me that if the judge sent her to do time then that meant that all of us were going to be living in hell.


Two days ago on 11/16/14 i was half asleep and had a anxiety attack took some medicine but didn't realize until 30 after that i took all the pills in the bottle and i was barely there and my mom an hour after i took them came home from the movies with my little brothers and came up to my room to find me barely there. my parents kept me talking until the paramedics came and rushed me straight out the to ambulance and straight to the hospital. I was there until early in the morning with my mom, aunt, and older brother Zachary. It is because of my parents and family that i am still breathing and able to celebrate my 21st birthday with amazing people


Life is way to short for all the bullshit that people cant stop bringing around.